I thought I would never let myself think this way again.

I just realized that I like liking guys.

It's not like I was once a lesbian and now all of a sudden I like guys...
it's just that for the past few months, I really haven't wanted to like guys like they were something good or important... I don't know... my life is crazy and I'm thinking crazy right now.

I don't know what I'm doing or saying.