Brutality

I'm going to be brutally honest for one moment. (Or two, depending on how long it takes me to write this out and how long it takes you to read it.)

I'm not an ugly girl, by any means. I am not a high maintenance bitchy girl by any means. I'm not annoying, I'm not stupid.

I am however intelligent, fairly good looking, active, fun, funny, and I have a pretty decent sense of humor.

However, even after losing 75 pounds, there has yet to be a single, available, man interested in me.

I'm not going to lie; I seriously thought that with all this improvement I've made in regards to myself there would have been at least one man interested. Instead I'm stuck with the perpetual no one is interested, and if they are, they're not saying anything, situation that seems to be my life.

I know that finding someone who will appreciate you for who you are is more than just losing some weight. Its timing, circumstances, and the little things that make relationships happen. But I’m still wondering why not me?

I’m reading this book called “Did I Kiss Marriage Goodbye?” and it asks these questions from a Christian perspective and talks about singleness and the Godly perspective of it. I’m only on the second chapter, but it’s really interesting. I know I’m not the only one who asks these questions, but it sure as heck feels like it.

I hope that I can find peace about my singleness, but the older I get it seems like I just get more and more restless about just how single I am. When you’re almost 25 and the last time that there was a guy even REMOTELY interested in you was your freshman year of high school, you start to wonder if there is something wrong with you, or how you come off to all these men that just AREN’T interested. What could it possibly be that prevents them from approaching you like you hope they would?

But more than hoping to find peace in my singleness, I hope to find a man who is a God-loving, country-dancing, baseball fan, who is into me! I’ve been praying for a man to come into my life since I was 17 and I’m just wondering when God’s timing will work out for him to enter into my life. I know that this man coming into my life will not make me happier or my life complete, but I feel like it would just be so much more fun to have someone to take this crazy ride called life with, than going at it by myself.