Inconvienient

My life seems to do this cycle thing, where one month, the outlook is good, and then the next month, it's tragically different. I can't tell you why this happens or even how for that matter, but the truth of it is that I try to get ahead, and then it just doesn't work. Take for instance last month... I worked my butt off at two jobs, and didn't have a day off from November 24th to December 24th. I was EXHAUSTED! Now I'm back to just working one job, and I don't know what to do with myself in my "free time."

My father informed me last night that, while I have this whole economic crisis to give me some sort of "excuse" it might start looking soon as though I'm unmotivated to get a job in the field that I got my degree in, as I haven't found a job in political science yet. This information was from our lovely city clerk, who my dad is friends with, and has been kind enough to send some job leads my way. The only thing that I can gather from this is that I have to start donning my best "I give a damn" face and start hitting up the political social circuit again. Not really a fan of that as most of the people that attend these "mixers" are cougars and men who just frankly don't care what women have to say about the "issues of the day." I am not a fake person and having to hang around fake people is not something that I look forward to, but I guess if I want to get ahead in the world of politics, I either have to, or I can just fly by and let it all come crashing down around me.

Of course the problem of relevance and what might be perceived as unmotivated stasis, could have been prevented if my dad hadn't issued a ban on me going back to school. I find it hilarious that had my dad allowed me to start my Masters last year, A) I wouldn't be having the problems I'm having financially, B) I'd be half done, and C) I'd probably be able to start as a substitute teacher as soon as next fall and looking for a job as a teacher soon after. But how do you completely counter someone who on one hand is right (I should get a "normal" full time job before I start my MA) but on the other hand is completely wrong, but has been kind and generous enough to let me live with him... rent free!

I'm so grateful for what I have, and I'm blessed really but I just need to get my head on straight and hit the ground walking... How's that song go? "These boots were made for walking..."

And that's just what I should do, I just need the right opportunity to come along for me to walk to.