The Oceans Tide

God is soooooooo stinking good to me.

I spent today at the beach. Asking him to meet me there, I grabbed my bible, my journal, and Captivating by John and Stasi Eledridge. This book has changed little facets of my life, it has shown me what I need to deal with as a woman, with my issues with my mom, and my confusion with my dad.

Anyways, today, I took to the Lord, my question about the crush I've got, a man who is so very kind, funny, good looking, adventerous, and from all angles I keep feeling like he's just not the man for me. And earlier today, I was visited with a thought: "Why settle for the river, when the Ocean is waiting?" You see, I can't really describe this well... it's very hard to do so. But I will say I've always been a deeply emotional person. I've got passion ooozing from my ears, and maybe that is what frightens men about me. But I know that being such a passionate person, I can't expect any less in my future husband. He will have to be as passionate, if not more so than me. The idea of the ocean comes in here, the ocean is a passionate, cruel mistress, what river has a hurricane? There may be rapids, but never a driving wind and rain that whips it into a fury.

Think about it in the way of ships and boats. Rivers are rarely very deep, and therefore, most of the vesels on rivers are shallow bottomed, if they were any deeper, they would run aground. Yet, the ocean is fathoms deep, not all of it's deeps have been explored, the ships on the ocean have huge hulls to take the brunt of a crashing wave. I am a sea faring vessel, place me in a river, and it's risky, there's a high chance that I will ground out and be stranded. A river needs a riverboat. What riverboat would survive the crashing tide? Not a one.

So God is good. He proves he loves us by showing us that yes, the things you want are out there...

The second thought that came to me today was "The river runs to the ocean." And let me say, that is the most beautiful thought that I could ever have... because it's like a promise from God almost that I won't be waiting forever like I previously thought. Soon, I will reach the oceans shore. I could do a jig, I'm so happy!